Happy Turkey Day..

I worked all day.. x_x I'm friggin' tired.

On the bright side I got some 13H stuff done tonight, I just need to get my scanner goin'...

HalloweenTown!Xas = sexy.

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"You're going to tell me who my family is now, boy? " Garrad asked looking stubborn. "You're family if I say you are."

And now Lenar was glaring at him. He still looked furious, but somehow it was all different. "Family's people who look after each other and fight for each other, too." He shook his head. " And I guess love each other. " He pushed Jem toward Ree. " Help your young man, son.... "

.... Ree could swear Jem said under his breath, " My damn stubborn young man."

It was the best thing he'd ever been called.

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Today is officially the longest day of the longest week EVER.

(Nevermind that it's only a 3-day week for me, and all teachers get to leave at 3:30 instead of 4:30!)

In my exciting life, I get to:

1) Go to Rita Ranch to dig up my Cooking with the Seasons cookbook, for Cinnmon Cornbread...
2) Buy and possibly make my Acorn Squash dish...
3) Get 2 keys made to Scott's house, as I lost his key and he's been meaning to get me a key for awhile anyway.

I also want to go to Goodwill, and later, I get to call the Copper Queen Hotel in Bisbee, to inquire as to the cost of holding a small wedding there. In case you're curious, here's the website:

http://www.copperqueen.com/

Right now, I'm looking there and at the La Mariposa Resort: http://www.lamariposaresort.com/wed_main.html

I'm also tallying the B&Bs in the area, to see if they'll be willing to give me a sweet discount.

Also, also, I have a dress. :D I just need to buy it.

Hello. :D

Hi there.

I know you're reading this.

How do I know? You make it so blatantly obvious.

It was bad enough of what you did to me. I am over that now. :3

What is worse is the girl you started fucking not 4 days after you broke off our relationship calls you by the name I coined for you. That's gross. :3

But I digress, I am here to ask you one thing. :3

Stop. Fucking. Following. Me.

I KNOW you created a new account on dA, I KNOW you still read my journal, I KNOW you still look for me on my old servers.

You and your whore need to really leave me the fuck alone. Both of you. Especially you.

Stop. k. thx. bai.

</3~!

For Blizzard's 5th year who-whats-it, we got Onyxian Whelps. Yaaaay.... They are these retarded little Onyxia chibis that stare at you with their googly eyes like they're going to eat your soul or something. If I weren't so lazy, I'd grab a SS of one of these little bitches.

Here's the deal. They do what Onyxia does in her happy little fiery home...

Onyxia takes in a deep breath....
Onyxian Hatchling takes in a deep breath...

It mimics mommy and blows smoke instead of ONE-SHOT FIAH. Cute. Woot.

...Did you know that when it does that, it sets of a thing called DBM? (Deadly Boss Mods - for those that don't play much or don't raid, this is an addon that tells you when to GTFO and where to GTFO.) I kid you not. It sets the god damn warning off.

Now see, we didn't know this until last night when a group of us are sitting in Onyxia 25 and staring the bitch down. We charge in there all ready to kick some Blackflight Ass and we can't figure out why DBM is all "BREATH MOVE", but out of instinct, we GTFO OMG ONYXIA IS GOING TO BURN US. Over. And Over. And Over again.

We wiped, actually. We wiped because we got caught up in a fire.

It was on our second try that we were waiting to regroup when one of the whelplings activated DBM. Basically we had killed ourselves because we weren't paying attention as to WHO was breathing fire.

Between that and this FESKING holiday...:



And having to do this all the time:



Plus THIS going on:



FUUUUUUUUCK that shit.

Yes, that's my rogue, yes you can see someone behind me in the SS who has fallen victim to the grenade. My god. -_-

No srsly. Men who stare at goats.


For anyone that knows me- you'll like this film. It leaves a warm squishy feeling in your heart, but takes you on a wild ride before it gets there.

The elements of it are pure geekery. Doesn't matter what kind of geek. They have have your starwars geekery ( MAJOR RUNNING PLOT POINT HERE ), they have frickin' CULT geekery, they have your shaman geekery ( yes they do! <3 ), they have your irony geekery, they have your NRM geekery even, they even have your conspiricy theroy geekery, your army geekery, they did not miss an element on it. I was impressed.

Because it was like Blip!RP did a movie.

I do not want to spoil it.. but I would *LOVE* to find people to talk about it and geek back and forth over it with ... because dude.... the Jedi were used as a major running thread to the plot.. <3 ...



SEE IT. Then we'll make a *spoliers only* post.. ^_^

" ... and sparkly-eye power?""Yep! Here, wait... watch this * makes wibble face* see?" " .... uh.. yeah."

• 00:36 boomslang on one wrist, antikythera mechanism on the other. i am in olfactory heaven. everything is magically delicious. #bpal #
• 12:59 www.youtube.com/watch?v=-zOrV-5vh1A&hd=1 this commercial is honestly magical. #
• 18:04 on me, antikythera mechanism = old version givenchy organza indecence, which i've been looking for a twin of forever. seriously, ilu #bpal. #
• 00:00 .....fab. #

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I just got told that my writing isn't formal enough for gradschool, but is great for under grad. Isert crying here*

Things I need to do and rock it:

-Cultral paper on gaming
-Cultural Ecology paper
-Paper on archaeology case sudies
-rewrite my exam.

all by next week. My slacking has killed me

Those of you who are current or former grad students: How did you finance it? Did you take out student loans, or did you have luck getting financial aid?

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• 14:45 green bean mooncakes &gt; red bean mooncakes. OM NOM NOMMMMM #

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I can't get enough of this song.

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• 13:30 Yes, exactly that. Gj someone else for summing it up for me. #
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• 18:36 i don't love gaga like everyone else but this is kinda amazing bit.ly/4015us she looks so much better without the costumey crap. #
• 00:01 somehow 8tracks has tapped into my brain and picked me a fantastic melancholic mix. fake plastic trees o my heart &lt;3 #

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I'm sitting here in class, watching Larry try to get across the concept of valance electrons and the number of protons and neutrons and electrons in an atom. It's sort of hilarious; middle schoolers, once you get past the obnoxiousness of their personalities are pretty amusing as a whole. Basically, what I'm trying to say, is that my job is overall pretty nifty. Even if it does get me mondo grading.

Trying to remember back to my middle school science class makes my head hurt. This is all so easy to me now - did I have this much trouble back in the 8th grade?

Also, why are the AZ Science Standards so CRACKTARDED?

• 12:39 Genuine bullet slug found on our roof by guys installing solar panels. Scary. yfrog.com/au9z8j #
• 14:57 new haircut. slightly vintage. i think it's super cute. dailybooth.com/u/12qmk #
• 15:00 and the front because chesuto is a demanding whore. dailybooth.com/u/12qne #
• 19:57 ...iago smells like the late stage drydown of crowley. i smell so fantastic i'd do me right now. ilu too leather, vetiver, and musk. #bpal #

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So... one of my old high school/gaming friends died in September and I'm just finding out now.

Remembering Greg Allard

I can't believe it. We weren't really close any more, but we were both doing computer science at UCF so I saw him around and we talked now and then.
I don't know what else to say, other than I'm really upset right now.

That trend, of course, would be my horrible absences from LJ followed by sporadic posting, usually with a purpose. Today is no different. I come to you, my dear LJ readers, to inform you about a contest I think you would like to enter (and, if you do enter, I hope that you use my link, so that I will also get a higher chance of winning!).

Heard of the Kindles, those lovely little electronic books from Amazon? Have you wanted one? Well, this might be your chance! Why don't you go enter the Great Kindle Contest? The number of Kindles being offered is up in the air at present, but if you happen to buy anything (anything at all) on amazon, buy through this person's link. It won't cost you any more, but she'll make money which will in turn be spent on... more Kindles to give away!

But anyway, you don't have to spend money or do anything special for this, really. It's a standard contest. Sign up for their mailing list, get an entry. Tweet, get an entry. Fan on Facebook, get an entry. That kind of stuff. Won't you enter?

http://tinyurl.com/kindleme

Sign up for the newsletter on the top right of the page that comes up (with reference # and all so I get credit), and you'll be entered. Easy as pie!

To break my trend, however, I think I'm going to be seeing a massive friend cut soon. If nothing else, I need to preen out dead journals and communities. I can't even read my flist anymore. I just don't know what's going on. Maybe if I clear things up, I'll be more capable of returning like I'd like to (see, for me, not you guys, it's not that I feel guilty!). I don't know, though. We'll see how it goes. I would say "comment if you'd like to stay" but I honestly don't know how many people read anymore, so even if you don't comment I might keep you. *laughs* Though your odds are better if you comment, I suppose.

I can not excuse my actions for the last month. I need to apologize to a few people for my behavior and anyone else caught in the crossfire of such. It is unfair to you for this.

" fears come true" " greatest cross are relationships" " communication issues" things that I have known now for years- but really only come to appreciate now. And like things that you find out you like and love- you don't really appreciate them until they're gone. ( I want skin a Rabbit plz kk?)

I have not behaved in a manner becoming my station, in a manner becoming the amount of respect that I hold for people- or love- or just like. I feel very strongly that there had been times when I have completly destroyed what little intgretity that I have to strike out at those that I care about like a wounded animal- only to make things justified as they react to it. This is no one's fault but my own.

I absolutly suck at communicating anything. A want, a need, a like, a don't like. I have a very hard stubborn fool head- that very much ashuritly believed that the best outcome this life was to die alone. Idiot that I am- I lived a long time believing this with the upmost sense of myself- and thou I would find affections and love in life- I eneveitabbly would find some point to drive them all away ( and yes there's a reason why this post is screened comment, and why I have anymonous posting enabled )... and that this all was justifying a means to an end. That some things just aren't worth it even if I can't help it but be human at the same time, and that if I push people away- they'll generally stop giving a damn be even mad at me and be -glad- to be gone.

I have a lot of self-worth issues that I hope to hammer out here soon while I'm given time to actually -rest- from my headlong stubborn ass flight into the great wilds of the North.

Things could not have worked out any other way than they are now.

I'm facing the loss of my job, a court case, moving back with parents that I haven't been around for a decade, still recovering my health ( while/if I can), still not stable after Shadow-max died.... a myraid of things, and I snapped under it. I've been told that people can take only so much- but this is no excuse to treat the people that I live with, or work with, or generally give a damn about the way I have been.

I can only promise that I will try to do better with myself- try to manage the levels of stress that make me so apt to lash out. I will try and let people know how I am feeling, what is bothering me, or what needs to be done because I have found that I do enjoy "company" as lochlain puts it, and though paths might not cross again, even remotely, it's a wonderful life skill that needs to be tempered and sharpened... becasue right now it's just a lump of uselessness.

There is very little I can do now- or say to make a thing better except to take it one day at a time- and commit myself to leading a better life than I was. Those that know me- know I hate being wrong. Usually this evens out into a desire to do things right first, or research things before having an opinion... along those lines. This also means thou that it makes it extrodinarily difficult for me to admit to such- and I have been avoiding doing so for somewhile.

I have been wrong lately. Very wrong... thou it was never an intention of mine to actively hurt people I know- i have done so unwittingly and today in a chat very well aware. This is uncalled for - and I'm sorry. I have dragged people in that were not deserving of it- and for the bystanders that have heard me and all the glory - I also apologize.

I hope to use this to make the next ten years something worth it. I am leaving here behind- but I am not running, or giving up. I will not admit to defeat, even to my broken sharded emotions. This is something that needs fixing- and it's as strong as a desire as how the First Call dragged me from my sleep at night making me cry for Alaska.

I wish that there had been some other way to take this Road, but there really isn't, and really wasn't. I have to accept my faults here- and work toward that better tommarrow. Right now I"m very broken. I do not expect people to really talk to me, or even things to change all that much with the people that have cut ties- I screwed up. I screwed up a couple times in the past- and have done so again.

This is not a damned pity-plea either. I am not saying things for people to be SORRY for me, or any of that. I say them so that if people see me doing the stupid shit.. somebody will take a mallet and thwamp me good if I don't catch it on my own. I say it as a reminder, to take it all in stride and keep going on, and I say it because other people I think need to hear it.

If anyone wants to contact me- a lot of you know my AIM handle, know my phone number and even know where i"m living for the moment... if not my email is : cloudstar@gmail.com ... and I can be reached there for ... whatever.

I am not ignoring anyone, or mushroom cornering and what not- but I do not expect my connection to the internet to be stable enough for updating on anything for sometime, I might be busy or I might be mentally not all there for it. I will be leaving a place I've lived at for ten years, going to live with people I haven't lived with in ten years, and setting myself up to live for the next stage of my life. I have a court case that I'm involved in, a motion to reply to- and a custody agreement that needs to be hammered out to both parties ease of mind. This coupled with Lochlain's care, and a retail job in food that has now entered 'roller skate time' also known as the Black Out Period.... makes for sproratics. I will reply to any emails or notes here- my parents and I have been emailing constantly- once a day for the last several. A lot of research and things need to be done, selling the furniture that I collected ( oh lol.... " boxes for my computer desk, eating table and seat for my butt" shall become so once more! ) ... and getting out of Alaska as fast as I can, because it is no longer good for me here. I'm pretty well broken at this point- body and mind in someways- and need to be able to piece it back together now that I have prespective. Something good will come out of this- I'll make it happen... me and my stubborn fool skull. XD

I am sorry for this. I am sorry that I caused this, and that there has been dramah extended so by myself and compounded by my actions. " Site underconstruction" now. I will be working on it.

Take care and goodnight.

Two years ago today I met Tayhne, adopted him and brought him home. :3

Man I love my dog. <3<3

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<3

I've been kicking around the idea of announcing this for a while now, even though a few people in real life actually know already. So, here goes:

I'm getting married!

The wedding is looking like it's going to be late next year, December-ish. In the meantime, there is teaching to be done, cash to be scrounged for both upcoming student loans and future matrimony, and a move to a new apartment to accomplish.

<3

So, after this week of being sick and catching up on professional development busywork, I realized one thing. I don't think gradschool was where I should've gone to. It was fun though, and like I told Dom, the only thing that might make me feel like staying is changing my thesis idea so that if I do go on to do a PHD, I can go to Hawaii and study with a professor who does the anthropology of MMO video games.

My other options in my mind are Peace corps, apply for video game companies, or look for a museum job.

Okay ... so I got curious. First i college searched the areas- found four colleges for under 10k a year in tuition for instate residents that carry my degree... cool beans yo!...

went " what the hell" and decided to go apartment hunting.

Now i know that there's this whole " wages different" and all between here and there.... and I remember talking to a few wrappers down in the states and they start at eleven bucks an hour. Right, so.

Even still.. when I look at what Anchorage offers for *CRAP* apartment rent. And what seattle offers instead for GOOD apartment rent... my eyeballs they roll away...

I could live in Tacoma-twenty five miles away- and get a two bedroom apartment that has a tennis court, a playset for kids, an excersise room, a fullsized basketball court, SECTION EIGHT HOUSING.........................................................


AND A FRICKIN' *POOL*

for 655. for fifteen dollars more than what i am paying in rent for my share of this threebedroom apartment. And since my share of this apartment is HALF........ that's ... alot of money.

Click for picture evidence

How fuckin' cool is that?! I might be allergic to chlorine.. but goddamn it'd be worth the ten bucks spent on lotion to SWIM WHENEVER I WANTED TO. Lochlain would *LOVE* that .. and instead of " can we go to the swing set" I'll hear " can we go to the pool?" heeeee :3


I think I like this plan better and better. It lures me in with watersports....... now if only came with my own ship.. :(

( Sasuke vs Itachi: Uchihacest. )<_< True story. Hikari went to Jef-fa-fa Dun-Ham Dot Com without me. T__T